devy

Halo? Apa kabar? Everything is fine? I hope so... 4 days ago I just opened our yearbook. Masih sama ternyata rasanya, masih tetep sama yang aku cari halamannya. I still looking for u. A little bit cringe maybe? or a little bit weird? atau emang dari dulu sebenernya gitu ya? Tapi aku gak sadar aja haha whatever.

Minggu lalu aku juga sempet gak enak badan and you came to my dreams, WHYYY?! This is not my first time and this is happen everytime I got sick too. I just trying to not thinking about u. I don't even try?? Kayak aku udah pasrah aja gitu. Tapi kenapa ya kayak TETEP AJA aku sama sekali gak bisa gak kepikiran. U R THE ONLY ONE THAT MAKES ME FALL IN THIS WAY... from every crush I've been before kayaknya nggak pernah se- kayak gini. Kenapa ya? Kayak rasa penasaran aku gak pernah bisa ilang gitu aja.

It's been 7 years from our first meet, also it's been 4 years from our separation. WHY U ALWAYSSSS CAME UP TO MY MINDDDDDD??! WHY?!

If I can erase my memory just like Lail did for Esok, I'll do it. Mending sekalian gak kenal aja, daripada aku kayak gini terus.

Why I still wondering how r u now? What's new on your life now? Is there something that can made u sad or made u stress now? KAYAK AKU KEPO BANGET.

Sekarang namamu di pddikti nggak ada aja rasanya aku kayak kehilangan jejak. Akun instagram barumu, kehidupanmunyang mungkin baru juga, kegiatanmu yang mungkin udah berubah? Aku masih penasaran dan tertarik soal itu.

Aku tiba-tiba kepikiran aja, is it love or obsession? is it love or my imagination? is it love or just my expectation? I just can't read my mind. Aku bener-bener gak tau mana yang bener.

Kapan ya aku bisa bener-bener nemu jawabannya?

When I can erase your existence in my mind? When I can loose my expectation about?

I still waiting for that time.